I also get in a few good hours with Best Chemist Friend and her boyfriend at their place, catching up in real time and enjoying some (non-alcoholic, for me, since I'm driving) drinks and watching her cats.
When the time comes for me to leave, as in leave the Lehigh Valley, there's a little confusion over how I'm getting to the bus—is Lawyer Mom dropping me off? are both parents? is Teacher Dad around?—but it goes smoothly. I say bye to Teacher Dad, and the usual goodbye ritual:
Rub noses, touch heads, give a kiss, a hug, and the other side
Which we did every day when he left for work when I was little, and then we do every time I leave on a long trip (or just, um, leave these days; these aren't "trips" that I'm taking abroad).
The last time I took one of these buses to NYC, there was a scheduling mishap and I ended up arriving hours later than I had planned. But this time the full bus actually radioed through and the overflow bus was there to pick us up just a few minutes later. Success!
I had messaged another college friend now in NYC about hanging out or getting lunch while I was in the environs, but between an international wedding, a work trip, and a death in the family, things didn't hook up and that's 100% fine. So I spend my morning at the Port Authority Bus Terminal, familiar and reassuring in its kind of grossness. I'm still reading Journal of a Solitude, though I also crib the free WiFi to putter around on Facebook and gchat.
I get bumped up from a layover bus trip to a direct bus, so I don't have to mess around with changing at Kingston. As usual, the ride is ugly all the way through New Jersey and then gorgeous in New York. Sometimes I think about where I'd live if I had to go back to the US, and New England (and New England adjacent) is top of the list. Did I go to college there because I loved it, or do I love it because I went to college there? Hard to say.
My ride, an Internet friend from high school who grew up in the area, relocated to Arizona for a few years, and is now back in Albany, picks me up and gets some Swedish candy for her troubles, and we go out for really goddamn good Thai food before she drops me off where I'll be staying in Albany, with two friends from college, L and A.
Everyone is on a tightly choreographed schedule. My ride's boyfriend will need the car soon, so there's no chance to wander somewhere for dessert (cider donuts!) and give my hosts a little extra time to get the kiddos down; coming directly to their house from the bus station instead of getting dinner with my ride would have plopped me there at Peak Chaos. We've timed things juuuuuust right.
I knock on the door and L answers.
"Koba Commander! Your timing is perfect. If you had been here, like, ten minutes earlier, you'd have met a room full of naked men."
(It's bath time with L and the boys.)
I go upstairs to say hello, and I sit with L and and the oldest son (now 3?), and we read a few stories before bed. A sings the youngest to sleep in the other room, like actually for-real sings a lullaby. Kids to bed, the grown-ups sit in the living room with some tea. I dig out my thank-you gift: some Söderte, in bags because I figure busy parents don't have time to mess around with tea diffusers and etc. The whole conversation is a weird overlay for me; I'm reminded of my parents' college friends that we saw sometimes. They had kids around my age (and my brother's age), and they were just over in Jersey, so it made sense for visits to happen and for the children to get shooed out to spend time together while the adults caught up.
Now I'm living the life I remember my parents living, kind of: I'm visiting with college friends who have just put their kids to bed. I'm just coming from a little farther away than Jersey. Adulthood. I forget what we talk about, but L ducks out the earliest while A and I keep talking about grammar and mathematics and things, but also a lot about friendship and how it changes over time and, naturally, assorted college memories.
"But like, that part of our lives is over now. We've been out of college longer than we were in it."
A is an absolutely lovely person, and one of the things that's lovely about her is that she has a combination of profundity, kindness, and no filter. She can get right to the heart of an issue, accidentally phrase it in the bluntest, gauchest possible way, and then realize how it might come across after the fact and feel awful and immediately apologize. When she goes on to say that her college friendships have become essentially dead and meaningless, she immediately catches the implications of what she's saying.
"I mean, I'm happy to see you and I'm glad you're here, Koba—"
"No, I know what you mean." And that's when I start thinking about Arrival and "The Story of Your Life" and my perception of time within friendships as being eternal and circular and many-layered, counter to what sounds like a very Zen approach ("I'm the person I am NOW, not eight years ago.") that A has.
There is some irony in the fact that we are having this conversation about the ghosts of our past and the temporary whatever that was college with our mugs of tea resting on a cheap, wheeled table/drawer thing that L found while "suite shopping" (dormitory dumpster diving) to outfit the suite we had for our junior (A's senior) year at school. Some things never change.
But sleep comes for us all, and since we're the adults who will be in charge of a pair of little ones in just a handful of hours, eventually we have to pack it in. A goes upstairs and I collapse on the dangerously comfortable couch. Never enough time; always too much to talk about.
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